Poem – Dominance

Beautiful creature she is
Innocent and prudish
Young and green
no knowledge of
what’s going to happen
no knowledge of her own delights
I control her

Beautiful young girl
at the mercy of my control
and my goodwill
She looks at me
Her gaze is like a deer’s
scared but yearning
for my touch
for my passionate kisses

She is mine
I control her
I cherish her
She can’t escape from her desires
Her pleasure is mine
Her body is mine

I can’t wait
To take possession of her
Her thighs are warm and soft
Her breath becomes heavy
And her gaze
Innocent but so delicious…

Her pussy
Dripping wet
As I like it most
I’m not going to prepare her
I trust my cock
Deep in her pussy
Her moans

Loud and helpless
Telling me
I am her entitled
possessor

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Poem – Woman of pleasure

Me,
Woman of pleasure
No euphemism, but reality
His pleasure is mine
My pleasure is his

My sensuality
Drives him wild
Teasing and seducing,
Seeing his reactions
Is what excites me

Me,
Woman of pleasure,
No male fantasy, but reality
Pleasure is what drives me
Sex is what I want, and what he gets

My body,
available to numerous men
Still cherished and desired
Two human bodies,
Exploring
Discovering
The possibilities of
touch,
sex,
eroticism

Me,
Woman of pleasure
I live from day to day
from pleasure to pleasure
from man to man
Not knowing what’s coming next
Will it be pleasure, will it be misfortune?

I won’t stop,
I can’t stop,

Is it an addiction,
a fetish
A deviant attraction?

prostitute or not,
I will always be
A woman of pleasure

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Anal sex

Dear readers,

Yesterday I had anal sex for the first time with a client.
Well, it wasn’t my ‘first time’ fortunately, but yes, this was the first time with a client.
And strange as it sounds, yesterday’s experience was way better than the previous one(s).
(I only had anal sex two times before ).
My very first time wasn’t the most positive experience.
It hurt so bad 😦 .
At that moment, I never thought I would regain interest in anal sex.
But I knew I could possibly enjoy anal sex.
My partner wasn’t just that sensitive.
And I’ve learned from experience that most men aren’t careful enough.
My second turn was a positive one.
I had another partner who treated my butt very carefully.
No experiences of pain and discomfort during the act and afterwards.
I thought: ‘Cool, I can enjoy anal sex.’

But, sex with a client is different sex.
And those clients expect you to be a pro and so to be prepared for anal sex.
In my more adventurous mood,
I decided to add ‘anal can be discussed’ on my advertisement.
And ‘no anal during the first date’.
Today I’m quite fortunate to have several regular clients that are understanding towards me.
And it’s a comfortable feeling to know I can discuss things with these men and that I can guide them in pleasuring me.
The client I performed anal sex with, is in particular understanding, sympathetic, and easy-going.
Even though his demeanor in bed is rather dominant, he’s always ready to listen and to absorb my advice.
When he saw I changed my advertisement, he eagerly suggested we should try it.
‘Ok’, I thought, ‘That means I have to start practicing my butt from now on.’ (we would meet a week later).
And that was what I did, every evening.
These where the intimate moments between me and my butt.
First with the fingers, than with the toys, building up slowly and calmly.

And than the day (=yesterday) came.
Our date was congenial and relaxed as usual.
He clearly looked forward to it, and wanted to penetrate me anally with his finger.
That’s when I introduced anal sex.
I explained the rules: enough lubricant, no anal to vaginal, start slowly and quietly.
After the explanation, I asked him to lie on his back, so I could sit on him.
“You promised me to let me be in charge during our date, so don’t do anything until I say so.
And don’t use your hands (to grab my hips and trying push me down too fast).”
Very slowly I let his penis enter me.
To give additional info: his penis wasn’t small.
And the whole process of entering happened uncomplicated.
No pain, no discomfort, although I felt remarkably full.
The sex was good and exciting.
We were both contented afterwards.
He, because he thinks anal sex is horny sex and I because the whole process happened painless, without discomfort, and without embarrassments.
We came to the agreement to practice more anal sex, so that I can get used to the feeling, and therefore enjoying it more.

Well, this was my first positive anal experience with a client.

I want to give the readers who are interested in anal sex, several tips to introduce anal sex.
You probably heard of these, but I still want to emphasise this advice:
– Talk about it: Yes, a cliché, but very helpful before every (new) sex act.
Don’t hesitate. If you never ask your partner about her/his stance on anal sex, you’ll never know if she/he would like to try it.
– practicing: A penis shouldn’t be the first thing entering your anus.
This was what happened during my very first time, and it hurt as hell! 😦
Start with your fingers and toys (if you don’t have toys, you can always use oblong, non sharp objects, best not to use these objects for other activities afterwards).
Practicing anal should be a very intimate activity: Between you and your butt.
Because only you know what feels right or wrong, and you can always stop when it starts to hurt. → Can stop? No, you must stop when it hurts!
Don’t try to push your fingers or objects further, even not when you only feel a little bit of pain. Pain is a sign you’re hurting your body.
– Coming to the next point: Never use anaesthetic lubricants! Just don’t.
It will take away some pain and discomfort, but I advise against these products.
Because you don’t feel the pain if your body gives the signal ‘Stop!’
That means you’re doing something wrong. Instead of using painkillers, find out what’s the root problem. Is the receiving partner relaxed enough, or is she/he scared because of the pain? Is the giving partner too fast or too rude?
Plus, using anaesthetic lubricants and ignoring the signs of your body can cause serious discomfort and injuries afterwards.
– Let the receiving partner be in charge. Best thing is to sit on the giving partner, and let his penis slowly penetrate the anus, by slowly lowering the lower body.
On the contrary: as a giving partner, you should never just push your penis in there!
– Always use condoms during the act. Even if you’re both tested on std’s and are told both to be safe, it’s safer and cleaner to do it with condom.
Infections can be easier transmitted through anal sex. The anus has fewer defence than the vagina, plus, penile yeast infection can occur too!
Anal bacteria and genitals are enemies, remember?
– Pay attention to what you eat, and when you ate last time:
After having eaten spicy and/or high-fiber foods, it’s just not a good idea to start anal sex, it can become messy.
Plus, it’s better for you to wait long enough after you have eaten. (I recommend minimum two hours).
In the meantime you can go to the toilet, and clean yourself.
– maybe a not so self-evident point: Don’t clean too much.
I know this sounds a bit odd to some.
But just as the vagina, the anus has its natural, useful bacteria that help protecting the anus. Using internal showers and cleaning materials can dry out the anus.
Oh, and NEVER your soap in there!
Both the vagina and the anus have natural protection systems.
Using soap is the best way to destroy your essential natural protection.

Hmm….What’ more?
Some advice to the giving partner:
– make sure the receiving partner is comfortable with the idea of anal sex.
If she/he is nowhere near comfortable, don’t even think of trying to push your partner into doing things she/he doesn’t want to, that’s just rape.
– during the sex session make sure the receiving partner is fully relaxed.
Physically and mentally. Giving a sensual and erotic massage can do wonders.
Speaking of being mentally relaxed, don’t introduce anal sex after your partner had a crappy day at work, or is being restless, etc….
– massage her/his buttocks: Doing this, you can observe the bodily reactions underneath your fingers. If you come closer to the anus, what’s her/his reaction? Do the muscles tighter?
That’s mostly a sign your partner isn’t relaxed or comfortable thinking of the  anal happening. Reassure your partner she/he is not going to be hurt.
– Coming to the next point: your partner has to be sure you’re to be trusted.
If you see signs of pain, or when you hear ‘stop’, just stop.
It’s always a good thing to introduce safewords during anal play.

Well, that’s my advice so far.
I hope you’ll take notice 🙂

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Hands…

Your hands are my addiction
masculine and strong,
yet careful and soft
sensitive to every reaction of my skin
causing my body to respond
with an even deeper longing

They have explored my body
over and over
not skipping one spot

Your hands let me crave for more

Your hands
raise that kind of eroticism
that cannot be equaled by sex

Just your hands
raise that kind of intimacy
I never experienced
before

Your hands
I like to hold them
Caressing with my fine feminine hands
knowing that they love every inch of my body
accepting it, as it is,
complete with
all its flaws and marks

 

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Unpleasant encounter

Dear readers,
Today I had a rather unpleasant encounter in a love hotel.
Nothing really awful happened during the date, but I felt far from comfortable with this client.
And I never had  that unpleasant feeling before with other clients.

I started by giving him a relaxing massage, as I usually do with clients.
He seemed to enjoy it. After that, he gave a nice spanking on my buttocks, which was still okay. My butt can handle some slapping. He kept doing that, till my buttocks looked red.

Then he became rude.
He grabbed my arms, and held them behind my back.
I was a frightened because I felt I had lost the control other clients allow me to have.
This client didn’t give me any space for me to move freely.
And I am someone who likes to have control, even over clients.
I suddenly felt so vulnerable.
A scary thought came in my mind: ‘Shit, this guy can do everything with me, I’m totally helpless and defenseless.’
He stood behind me, and held me firmly.
I was afraid he was going to penetrate me, without condom.
Fortunately, he didn’t.
Then he turned me around, put me on my knees, and thrusted his cock into my mouth, till my throat.
And usually I don’t give blow jobs without a condom.
That’s where the problems started.
I resisted, and I said this was not the agreement.

He said: C’mon cutie, open your mouth,
I don’t have much time, I have to return to my work. C’mon don’t be shy.
I want to come in your mouth.
‘In my mouth?!, I though, no, I really didn’t want to do that.
But it was too late. He grabbed my hair, and pulled my head backwards, so that he could see my face.
He held my hair, while jerking off.
The white semen hit my face, but I quickly closed my mouth.
Fortunately he didn’t notice it, while ejaculating.
He didn’t seem satisfied, but he had to return to his office.
I thought: ‘pffff, I don’t mind if that bastard isn’t satisfied and doesn’t want to see me again. I don’t want to see him again either.’

I don’t know what to think of it.
I had to be more assertive, that’s for sure.
But on the other hand, I was a frightened.
If I bluntly refused to be treated that way, would he be angry, and hurt me, physically?
Didn’t he really have no respect for me, because I’m just a prostitute, or had he watched too much porn?

Anyway, I had a very uncomfortable feeling during our date.
His behaviour towards me made me feel wary.
‘This is not going to be easy’, I thought.
And it was not his dominance that bothered me.
One of my favorite clients is very dominant, yet he is respectful and tries to make me feel comfortable.
But this client was cheerless, unlike my others clients who try to look a bit sympathetic, even during a short encounter.
He didn’t talk to me, he only commanded me what to do.
During the introduction I noticed he didn’t even look at me.
While showering, he didn’t even look at my face and didn’t allow me to touch him.
I wonder if he was disgusted by me being a prostitute.

I can’t say I feel abused, but I feel at least ‘used.’
I wonder if it’s just me, or how would you feel?
Or, as an escort, how would you handle the situation?
I’m curious.

Lips

My lips,

so soft and sweet,

so full and delicious.

softly touching your skin

they start with the mouth

then move over to the neck,

where they stay for a while

kissing and caressing

while a hand is twirling your hair

my lips hungrily continue their journey

they notice your fingers, and start sucking on them

oh, how I love to see your expression

longing for all the things my lips could do

but I like to tease you

pressing a soft kiss onto your lips,

I look to your eyes,

damp from desire

my lips descend

slowly

playfully caressing your skin

sometimes sucking, sometimes kissing

Then I look into your eyes

full of hunger

I touch the tip, press my lips against it

and let your manhood enter my mouth

my lips embrace your shaft tightly

not skipping one spot

I take you deeper

and deeper

your groans tell me

you’re in heaven

for this moment

rhythmically shoving my lips over your penis

I increase the speed

I know you can’t hold it much longer

But I tease you

again

playfully watching your expressions

and how they change

You love mine too,

how my glance can be so devilish, so naughty

You can’t hold it

I feel your shivery movements

I see the helplessness on your face

…..

you come all over my breasts

and on my nipples

you lick it up

and press a kiss on my

delicious

lips